Over the past few years, I have become keenly aware that everyday brings us one step closer to the grave. Now, don’t gasp just yet- I haven’t gone off the deep end. Everyday it seems I hear about someone else with a terminal illness, someone else that has died, someone else that is struggling. I am acutely aware of how much this world wears on us and how heart-breaking it can be to be bombarded by death and destruction day after day.
At the same time, as Christians each day brings us one step closer to literally meeting our maker. The worst case scenario in this life is death, at least for most people, but for Christians shouldn’t that be something to look forward to? Sunday Brother Kirk shared that when we close our eyes in this Earth and open them in Heaven, he believes we will finally have the feeling that ‘THIS is what I was created for’. Heaven is where we will be redeemed, fulfilled, and whole for the first time in our lives.
So I don’t pray for healing. It all started when my dad was sick. I can’t remember the exact time my mind shifted, but I do remember feeling like I had this wall that I just couldn’t pray for healing. I felt like I knew that no matter what happened, no matter if he was miraculously healed or not, he would still die before I was ready for him too. So I didn’t pray for healing, instead I prayed for strength, for peace, for comfort, for his life to be a light to the rest of my family, and that we would be able to celebrate and rejoice in the life and Christian walk that my dad lived (especially toward the end of his life) no matter what the outcome. We also prayed Isaiah 40:31 over my dad.
“But they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.“
It dawned on me after he had died, that God granted this prayer. Dad’s strength had been renewed, for the first time ever he would be able to run and not grow weary. He was mounted up on wings like eagles because for the first time ever, he got to be in Heaven with his creator literally doing what he was created to do.
During that time though, we had a lot of people tell us that they were praying for his earthly healing. Then when he died, it seemed to rock their world and not in a good way. They thought that God hadn’t come through, that somehow God had let us down. But God gave us the desires of our hearts. God healed my dad and allowed him to go home for the first time. God allowed dad to come face to face with Jesus and I think there was a joyous reunion between my dad and his dad too.
I don’t pray for healing because that can be a stumbling block for a lot of people. It’s really easy to be mad at God when you think you know best and He doesn’t follow along. Please know, I don’t pray that people will die either. Instead, I pray that whatever the outcome, whatever God’s will turns out to be, that the person in question have peace about where their eternity lies. I pray that they have a supernatural peace and strength from God himself. I pray that the family has the same and is able to see past the potential pain into the blessing that may be. I pray that their life be a witnessing tool and whatever happens, that it be used to further the Kingdom of God and to glorify Him. Lastly, I pray that above all, God’s will be done because he knows far better than I what the best course of action is.
You see, while I only see the threads on the back of the tapestry of my life, God sees the completed picture of the world’s tapestry from creation to the end of time. Who am I to stand in God’s way. Job 38:4-7 says this,
“Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth?
Tell me, if you have understanding.
Who determined its measurements—surely you know!
Or who stretched the line upon it?
On what were its bases sunk,
or who laid its cornerstone, when the morning stars sang together
and all the sons of God shouted for joy?“
So no, I don’t pray for healing. Instead I pray that I and they be aligned to God’s will and whatever may come brings glory to God. I don’t know much, but what I do know is that God is good and we are not. And one day when I get to stand next to my dad in Heaven and see the grand tapestry of time, I don’t want to see where I tried to stand in God’s way. I can’t see the grand plan, and because of that, I try my best to keep myself in perspective. God is just, He is holy, He is loving, and He is good. He will accomplish his purposes with or without me on board.
I don’t pray for healing. Instead, I pray for Heaven. And I thank God that He allowed me to learn this from my parents. I thank God that dad is in Heaven right now glorifying God forevermore by finally being able to do what he was created for.